Ghosting - purposefully avoiding interaction, withholding attention or withdrawing from all communication without apparent warning or justification.
The last few months have been some of the most challenging. I went through a little depression period with the weight of my situation finally setting in. I’ve lacked in my motivation to simply do the little things and have felt a little forgotten. Self-pity kicked in and the destructive feelings of worthlessness, inadequacy and a hollow emptiness managed to make itself at home.
Prayers ceased, scripture study was limited to spiritual posts on my social media feed and attendance at church grew into less of a priority. I felt hopeless and that led me to “Ghost God”. We’ve all been there. Avoided a person or situation intentionally for various reasons. But very seldom does the reason lie with the person or situation and is a reflection of how we’re dealing with things in our own lives.
Recently while scrolling through Instagram I found this post about how one of the adversary’s most powerful tools is indecisiveness. A flood of thoughts came to mind like President Monson’s quote, “Decisions Determine Destiny.” And Elder Uchtdorf’s talk, “Waiting on the Road to Damascus.”
“What am I doing?”
“What sign was I hoping for?”
Reality set in. There wouldn't be a sign. There have already been signs. From the countless testimonies borne to every spiritual experience I’ve ever had. I was humbled to think that I had been so blind to see how a loving Heavenly Father had blessed me with experiences and evidences to draw strength from to get through this. The Lord truly does prepare us for EVERY challenge, trial and hardship we will face.
If you find yourself in a place similar to mine, don’t let it last as long as I did. You know enough. You have enough. You are enough. Be hopeful and full of faith.
“Wherefore, if a man have faith he must needs have hope; for without faith there cannot be any hope.”